Great Writers -- RO
About Roberta Dohse
Roberta Shellum Dohse practiced law in Corpus Christi for many years. She has always loved to write.
Montevideo
I once read a book about a woman who ran away from her life,
changing her name to that of towns through which she passed,
names so unique and different
that no one would think them the name of a woman.
She cut free her tethers and floated into a new world.
There are still times when I wish to pull up stakes, leaving behind all that is
known.
I still thirst for new challenges, new mountains,
different faces of the sun.
What am I searching for?
At those times the moments appear like facets in a gem,
turned one way and the familiar stares back,
turned another and the unknown glints in the light so enticingly,
luring me with possibility.
Those moments last only so long as the light refracts just so,
but an urgency still remains and presses on me
to change the air I breathe, the job that I do,
the routine of my life.
I want to see a different mountain, listen to a different sea.
So I dream. But they are waking dreams.
My restlessness is strong.
And though my wandering is a poor substitute, it helps slake my thirst
when I watch the sun rise, or set, on a different sea,
taste the salt in the air and smell the pines.
There is a respite as I breathe in heather and lilacs,
new rain on freshly turned earth
leather being worked into scabbards
and iron being forged,
melted wax being formed into candles,
alfalfa in the fields and dust on the wind.
I grow herbs and imagine I am of a different age in the gardens of a castle.
And, sometimes, I linger at the faint strums of a guitar and think of you
and wish I did not have to wander just to catch a hint of your
passing.
Bittersweet
The old tree where you first pulled down a branch
to pluck me a sweet blossom,
where you first gazed so deeply into my eyes,
it is leaning so wearily into the wind.
The old gas pump is still standing at the edge of town,
though the station is now long abandoned.
It was there you first put your hands on my shoulders
and drew me close, just to smell my hair.
And just up the hill is the old barn
where we had our first dance,
swaying so slowly to the rhythm of the band.
I still remember the deep musky smell of you.
There is music! And despite my best intentions,
I am drawn in to gaze at the big dance floor,
at the band at the far end, up on the stage,
just getting started.
People filter in to sit at the rough wooden tables,
laughing, talking,
and I lose myself in the lively tunes.
I can almost taste the beer.
A smile steals across my lips.
Then a loud commotion erupts at the door,
and you burst in,
your bigger-than-life laugh filling this space.
You move through,
greeting old friends, eyes sparkling,
legs twitching with the pulsing rhythm.
The very air has come alive.
But you are not with me,
and the tears spill unbidden from my eyes.
I stifle my sobs, fade back into the shadows,
then out into the twilight.
Still, I cannot keep from looking back as I drift
slowly down the hill, and,
like Lot’s wife, I am rooted to the spot.
The last rays of the setting sun
arc through the gaps in the walls,
through the places where the roof has crumbled,
where moss and leaves have tumbled in.
And, with a great a flutter of wings,
a covey of dove bursts out into the cooling air.
Shadow and color mingle, and glitter in my tears.
When am I and where are you, my love?
copyright Roberta Dohse
Robin Carstensen is the Poet Laureate of Corpus Christi. She directs the creative writing program at Texas A&M University-CC.
PRIZE FIGHTER: 101 VARIATIONS ON A THEME
No. 15
Dear Search Committee for English Faculty at Midwest Prairie University:
I am a swinger. I can swing from one vine to another all day long, on and on. I am the tree and the vine. I will bend, but not break. I am the sky and the range, and the deer on the range where the antelope play and seldom is heard a discouraging word, and if so it won’t be from me, because I am a “we,” and there is no I in team.
No. 27
Dear Search Committee for English Faculty at the University of King Rooster Ranch and Possibly Eden:
My sweet nectar will feed your shimmering green student hummingbirds, while I serve free-range chickens to the faculty from my own feathered flock that I raise, slaughter, and defeather single-handedly. I can assure you with the highest confidence, I am an ace in the hole, and you would be an ass in the hole not to hire me.
No. 53
Dear Lords of the Upper Echelons of English and Lost Humanities at the University of Cheese:
You might want to hire a poet to teach that poetry class listed at the bottom of your course guide in Baskerville Old Face font, size 8. Looks like the lit prof, who teaches it now has no poetry publications in print, cyberspace, or on any planet in our galaxy, though she did write an essay twenty years ago published in the Daily Moo. While I don’t mean to milk its provincialism, I am compelled to question the Moo’s peer-review process. More importantly though, you could have saved us all a lot of trouble by encoding something in your job posting about the insider you intended to hire regardless of 363 applications. Solution: next time, insert the word “moo” after minimum qualifications, as in “must have experience with exploitative for-profit online universities, and be able to moo well.”
No. 69
Dear Search Committee of the Tabernacle of the Most Holy and Some Polygamy Here and There of Red Earth Canyon:
I really wish you would not have teased me by insinuating that you were seeking to become more open, affirming, and diverse. If I had known you were deeply entrenched in the Most Holy of Red Earth Canyon and Some Polygamy Here and There Culture, I would have had a different notion of open and affirming. For starters, I would not have brought in Judith Ortiz Cofer’s “The Changeling” for my teaching demonstration, and asked you to break into groups and act out each stanza. While I think your Chair did a fine job performing the young girl who plays the warrior with her father, I think the Director of Composition could have put forth a little more effort as the mother who feverishly braids her daughter’s hair and forbids her to hang out with the boys again. She was supposed to follow my script and emphatically demand, “Be sweet, damnit!” I feel she was not very enthusiastic about her role and therefore didn’t adequately convey the subtle nuances of gender construction. On the up side, I got to play poker with the big boys on my way back home through Sin City. I mean to say these were real men, studs with cigars and whiskey, up all night. Not you wussy willow boys from The Tabernacle of the Most Holy and Some Polygamy Here and There on Red Earth Canyon.
No. 77
Dear Gulf Coast Breeze Community College with No Journal, Not Even an Undergrad Vanity E-Zine with Misogynist Comic Strips:
I’m accustomed to the humidity that slaps onto one’s skin and coagulates one’s hair into a Brillo pad. I can stick through hell and high water like flies on shit, like shine on Shinola. I have a small RV, will travel. Well, okay, it’s one of those pop-ups. I can set up camp anywhere in a flash. You’ve got swell beaches, and I’ll have students and faculty over for poetry nights and weenie roasts. And I don’t mean “weenie roast” in any subterfuge of male bashing, so no worries! I’ll even pitch in the Boone’s Farm. “Oh, the places we’ll go, the things we’ll do.”
No. 81
Dear Enchanted Castle Northeast, Up with the Picture Perfect Postcards of Autumn in the Trees, for the English job posted two weeks ago, indicating Position Open Until Filled:
I’ve been around the block a few times, so trust me, I can fill your position like the fourth of July. I’ve been on Skype and campus interviews for the past thirteen months, and I can assure you I have the flexibility and the wide-open range and depth to not only fill your position but overflow it. I am the position.
No. 85
Dear Reverend of the Search Committee for English Faculty at Big Moose Small Liberal Arts Catholic University and Sisters of Providence Somewhere Near Brokeback Mountain:
It felt weird to say “father” to someone who isn’t my father; it’s like I was in the confessional booth forced to say “daddy” to a BDSM who wants to top, so I was taken slightly aback when trying to leave that voicemail inquiry. I also realized my feminist dissertation would probably not lend itself hugely to me making the phone interview cut, but you should know I was cutting you some major slack despite the recent press biz about the bishops cracking the whip on abortion and birth control. I regret my willingness to sacrifice my principles for a job, but the thought of meeting the Sisters of Providence was tempting. I confess wondering how much versatility lingered beneath those providential habits—the quantum potentials of a Sister and I becoming enrapt in one another on a fine Spring day, frolicking in the lilies and The Lucy Poems. I should clarify I was actually saying Take me, take me to the sisters when I left that whispery message on your phone.
No. 99
Dear Pizza Hut Night Shift Manager:
I know, I know. I locked myself out of the car during the delivery-driver orientation, with ten pizzas stacked inside on the passenger seat, and the engine running, and I apologize; but to be fair, your nephew distracted me by repeatedly rubbing his crotch and staring at my breasts while we were getting lost in the maze of cul-de-sacs and dead-ends down by Laguna Reef and the Volunteer Fire Station, and I had to get out before his pants caught on fire. Thankfully, one of the firemen came out to help. After putting your nephew out, we took swift action and found an old license plate in the bed of the truck to jimmy open the car door latch. I know we took some poetic license, but you have to admit we showed innovation under pressure what with two engines running hot, and the pizza going cold and lard-hard as well…. not someone’s mama.
No. 101
Dear Search Chair on Humanity’s Last Lost Horizon:
You can take the dog out of the fight, but you can’t take the fight out of the dog. I’m four years in and 121 rejections later on a book of poems that could break your ribs (which is what I want to do to the editors every time some young chump barely 21 years of age gets a book published like he’s got something to say on the planet). I’m tougher than Tungsten Carbide, baby. I can bounce back up like a Jack-in-the-Box. You don’t even have to wind me up. You’ll just be walking by one day, minding your biz, and bang. I’ll pop up, and you’ll screech. I’ll laugh so hard I’ll pee in my pants (getting to that age now, what with not doing my Kegels), and then you’ll laugh too, because sometimes it really is the best medicine, isn’t it; and we’ll be ROFL, honey, which I’ll bet my cheese puffs is the best response to the wild call from every form of capsized humanity, SOS, SOS, SOS…..!!
Hard Core (originally published in Zócalo Public Square)
Even the minimalist drinks beer, though he lives alone in a modest place
and walks everywhere. Sits on the floor with Rumi and a frying pan
with couscous. He touches himself to the rhythm of pixels on a screen;
contemplates the mystery of a bulb, red and yellow flame of Semper
Augustus streaming down his face. A wasp is crawling on the ceiling,
lost among plaster stalactites. He perceives it has taken a wrong turn, opens
the window for the breeze to draw it out, watches it regain a sense of bearing
and fly home. He writes new song as the high bard, prays for the whole world
to listen and not come home empty and grieving at the hour of their death.
He also rents Gag Factor, one through ten, stares, unblinking, at Asian
spice and honey blondes fresh off the bus from Winnipeg, their mouths
pulled open wide for communion—his one offering of faith in free enterprise.
Breaking Point
Beyond the Buena Vida Senior Village
sprawled across the old grain field,
your cloud nearly touches his hovering
over the desk, where you’ve both made it
after all to this last office down the hall,
far end of Del Mar West, the outreach campus—
edge of the oil refinery city, South Texas
Gulf Coast, where you finally finished
your own heavy lifting, defended
your dissertation after playing medic,
dishwasher, short-order cook, pizza-hut
deliverer, now trying to catch a new
break, he lifts his draft—essay one—
above the shaft of afternoon dust,
gauzy thick like revision-talk for making
clear and academically sound his life
on the industrial edge, the drug lords
who track him to every address,
tempt him with rolls of bills—favor
for his father and brother behind
Beeville’s bars, whose sealed mouths
and flared eyes command him to stay
his course. The vapor from their locked-in
dreams beating like the Royal Tern’s
wings heavy with metal residue
lifting against the chemical sky
has gathered in the atmosphere
of his face and yours when you look
into the large, black shades that veil
his eyes, you freeze, hear the distant
pierce of an engine’s gullet full-throttling
down Old Brownsville Road, or urgent
call of gull. The sound is closing in,
and now it strikes you—here, escaping
his throat. His brick shoulders shake,
his lips are wet, and the issue at stake
is cracking the surface, beyond the point
of saturation, his life, and yours, dark
chambers in the cold room about to break.
Robin Chanin
Memories of Woodstock
I was 17 years old in the summer of 1969, when I announced to my parents that I was going to upstate New York to a three-day music festival. They looked at me like I was crazy. They said "oh really, and how do you plan to get there?" I told them I would hitchhike if I had to, but I was definitely going. I whined about it. I got my twin brother Michael and my younger sister Lynn to whine about it. My mother reminds me that I was the ringleader and instigator. I had roused my siblings to the cause, and we all wanted to go to Woodstock. Our teenage mantra was that we would get there any way we could. We had seen the poster. We heard about it from everyone we talked to. The festival's energy was simply omnipresent in our world. My parents relented but only on one condition, if our 20 year old brother Marc, who was home from college would drive us in his fine 1967 Ford Galaxy 500 convertible. My mother tells me now that she gave him her credit card and cash to encourage him to take us. She even paid for the gas. So, he agreed to chaperone and chauffeur us, and our high school buddy Susan, to the celebration of peace and music: Woodstock.
We borrowed sleeping bags from our neighbors. We didn't even have backpacks so we didn't pack a thing with us. No food, no change of clothes. We were kids from suburban Fords, New Jersey, who had never camped out in our lives. Despite being seasoned anti-war protesters, open-air music concerts was out of our ken. We brought an extra blanket, like we were going to a picnic, loaded ourselves into the car and drove the 125 miles upstate to a show we didn't have tickets for. I think we must have assumed that we would buy tickets at the gate. It all seemed very reasonable to a 17 year old.
The ride was uneventful until we arrived fairly close to the site on Friday afternoon. Suddenly there were cars and people everywhere. Everyone looked just like us. My older brother told me that that's what he remembers most about Woodstock, how it was a great equalizer. No one stood out. There was a moving sea of blue jeans and flowing hair, beads, embroidery and flowers. We just parked our car in a field of other cars and joined the throngs. We didn't even have to know where the event was being held exactly, the movement simply took us there. We had heard in the crowd that the fences were down and people were being allowed in for free. That worked for us. We were going to Woodstock and we didn't even need tickets anymore!
A sea of people spread before us in the largest crowd of humanity we had ever seen amassed in one place. There was a stage in the distance, and smoke was rising from pipes and joints. Everyone smiled at each other like we were all members of the same lost tribe, now rejoined. There was camaraderie, a likeness of spirit. It reminded me of Walt Whitman's: And what I assume, you shall assume; For every atom belonging to me, as good belongs to you."
I remember listening to the music of Ravi Shankar, Arlo Guthrie, Joan Baez. Darkness fell to their sounds on Friday night. People came and went. Joints were passed around. Someone gave us amyl nitrate. The world inverted and then righted itself. The rain started. We moved our wet sleeping bags closer to the stage. The rain continued. We were part of the sea of people.
I don't remember sleeping, but soon it was Saturday morning.
I have to admit I don't remember much else. My older brother left us for several hours in search of food. That was some time on Saturday. I do recall that he showed up with a dozen hamburgers and a good-sized box of big soft pretzels that someone had given him on the side of the road. We shared the bounty with our neighbors. Lynn, Susan, and I walked to the port-a-potties. There were tables set up where event organizers were handing out information; there was food somewhere; there was a makeshift medical tent. I don't know how we found our way back to our family and our little square patch of place, everything looked the same in every direction, but we did. I remember feeling safe everywhere we went.
It occurred to us, though, we were completely unprepared to stay. We were in the same clothes from the day before. We had spent the night outside unprotected from the elements. We were cold, and we had no way to change our situation. So, we decided to leave. One of our neighbors was handing out acid. My siblings and I didn't indulge, but Susan did. She opened her mouth, and he tossed in a tab. Just like that. We headed back to the car, found it and headed south on the New York Thruway. By then It was late Saturday afternoon.
Exhaustion does not begin to describe the state we were in. Giddy and hungry, we talked and dozed. We pulled off on to the thruway shoulder and slept, with the top down. Susan was still tripping away. She sat on the top of the back seat and watched the sky change colors. She told us that while we slept she had walked into the field of cows we had parked next to and had communed and communicated with them. It's very likely that's exactly what happened. We had just come from Woodstock. We knew anything was possible.
If I had to summarize those 24 hours we spent at Woodstock, I would say that we did not hear much of the music, but we celebrated with a half million other people the first festival of peace.
Ginsberg, Burroughs, Ferlinghetti
I love being reminded of Allen Ginsberg's poems. I had the wonderful good fortune to cross paths with him in 1982 in Boulder, Colorado. I volunteered at Naropa Institute where he was teaching a poetry course. I did a summer poetry apprenticeship with him and would go to his house to help him with all kinds of stuff. He had an old file cabinet with a giant folder in it called "Faded Yellow Newspaper Clippings" that I would add to on a regular basis. It was the summer of the Kerouac Conference celebrating the 25th anniversary of the publication of On The Road. All the old Beat poets and writers were there. I was the volunteer coordinator for that week-long event. One of most favorite summers of my lifetime.
Here's another anecdote from the 1982 era. For some reason I had William Burroughs in the back of my car driving him somewhere. He had a companion with him, but I can't remember who. Burroughs said in his very strange voice, "I want to stop and get some strawberries." The way he said strawberries sounded so bizarre, I never forgot it. Many many years later on the the campus at UC Santa Cruz, the library had just gotten many works by Lawrence Ferlinghetti. He was on campus to celebrate. I was coming out of the library for a completely unrelated reason and saw him walking up the steps. I had to stop and ask, "Are you Lawrence Ferlinghetti?" He said, "Yes, I am." I said I was the volunteer coordinator at the Kerouace Conference at Naropa in 1982." He looked at me and his eyes twinkled with happiness. He said "Oh that was a time...that was quite a time."
About Roger Lawrence
Roger Lawrence lives in Corpus Christi. He founded the Navy Office of General Counsel for the Chief of Naval Air Training Command. In that capacity he represented the Blue Angels and the National Museum of Naval Aviation. As a sailor, he earned a Coast Guard rescue. He is barred from every golf course in South Texas.
Rattlesnake Christmas
The December cold fronts this year have forced small rodents to seek the warmth of our garages and yards in the Garden Court subdivision of Corpus Christi, Texas. We’re a small, gated community on a half-street adjacent to a swath of coastal marshland along the Oso Creek estuary. For our rodent neighbors, Garden Court is a welcoming refuge area that is just a short march from the marshy bottoms.
After another wet cold front blew through last night, I was up at first light to inspect a trap for mice on the track at the bottom of my garage door. Instead of a mouse, a triangular head popped up with its midsection caught in the trap. I froze. The eyes were slit. Gray-brown diamonds interlaced on its back, and its bobbing black tail was interspersed with silver racoon-rings. A rattlesnake. My instinctive reaction was both quickened heartbeats and breathing. I then felt the hot fear on my skin that if anything went wrong—the snake got loose, struck me, his fangs found a blood vessel, delays getting to hospital, the vaccine was not in stock, or I was allergic to the vaccine—if any of this happened, this snake could make me miserable, and, maybe, dead.
I resolved to strike first. After all, I had a collie puppy to protect.
I would be in good company. The residents of Garden Court see themselves as living in an unremitting siege from snakes seeking moisture from our sprinklers in times of drought, high ground in floods, or the warmth of our sun-bathed concrete driveways when the weather turns cold. A week ago, a retired policeman shot a six-foot rattlesnake on the green walkway behind our homes with a 12-gauge (which, being within city limits, was not strictly legal). He was miffed that the shot ruined the snake meat. Two days ago, a buzz-cut Marine Ready Reservist hoed the head off a rattlesnake his wife flushed out while tending her roses. She was alerted as the off-white rattle on the snake’s tail poked up through the leaves and the snake hissed, sounding like air escaping a tire—as she later recounted to my wife, who subsequently began watering her roses from afar with an outstretched hose.
But standing wedged between the trunk of my car and the garage door, I realized that none of these instinctive first-strike strategies would work in the tight confines of my overstuffed garage. After giving my mortal enemy a closer look, I realized that he was only about 14 inches long—a baby that hadn’t yet grown a rattle for his tail. Given his size, he couldn’t coil and strike any longer than two–thirds of his length, at least, if I recalled the warning to hikers from the National Park Service correctly. I decided to scoop him out, still in the trap, with a spade. But even so, if anything went wrong he was still venomous and potentially as lethal as his elders. As I shoveled up the pint-sized poisonous snake, he writhed, coiled, and struck at me. No doubt from his perspective, I was a hulking Satan with the mythical pitchfork in my hand. He struck nothing but the cold air between us. In less than a minute, his rapid-fire strikes faded, and he rested his head in the spade. His airy bites dissolved into lazy yawning.
The yawns threw me off my game. Despite the constant reminder of his fangs to keep my spade fully extended from my feet and legs, I brought the snake toward me to have a closer look. I then realized that my prisoner’s status had changed from lethal insurgent to exhausted infant. My initial plan to summarily execute him, in the rodent graveyard in the yellow grass beyond the reach of the sprinkler, was no longer a valid emergency response. I decided instead, to execute him in the marsh whence he came. I knew my wife would favor my forced march down to the marsh bottoms. Removing all traces of the snake from the yard would allow her to back down from her own emergency watering protocol. Besides, I told myself, the snake, as a hunter, deserves a separate burial ground from his prey.
Wielding the spade with my prisoner in front of me, I hiked two hundred yards out my back gate and down to the coastal marsh grasslands to the execution site along the Oso Creek estuary. Once there, I noticed that the rain from the fronts had turned the grasses into a spongy, musty, tan-gray mat that threatened to deflect the strike of my blade, staying the execution.
When I reached the execution site, the foundling stopped yawning, too fatigued to extend his forked tongue. He made sideways caterpillar movements head to tail. I loosened my death grip on the handle, and reverting to my former persona as a military prosecutor, rendered his sentence: Little serpent, your kind are not compatible to live side by side with humans in their habitat. You are, however, found NOT GUILTY of constituting a clear and present danger to Garden Court. You entered without malice, with the sole intent to seek warmth and food in the form of refugee mice. I release you back to Mother Marsh—incubator of reptiles, fish, fowl, grazing mammals, scavengers, live oaks, and the grasses of costal south Texas. I planted one foot, and with the other gingerly freed his tail from the trap, and slid him off the spade. As I stood motionless over the freed and quivering snake, the memory cells of my rattled brain then recalled another statistical caution to hikers—most venomous snakebites are caused by victims trying to kill the snake.
The little guy disappeared through a bunch of switchgrass, the only bunch still hardy and glowing green on the marsh. But I knew that this singularity of switchgrass was not long to survive alone and green on the cold marsh bottoms, and so I made a contract with Mother Marsh: You will nurture the infant snake back to health; whereas I will take her sacrifice of the endangered green switchgrass, with my spade, on the condition that I preserve it through the coldest days of the year.
That same evening, I assembled our tree of wire and green-dyed bristles in preparation for the observance of Christmas. I transplanted the clump of withering, but still green switchgrass, in a flowerpot and placed it at the base of the tree. Mother Marsh’s spring-green blades graced our home with the promise of warmer days for Garden Court, and a thaw of hostilities with our neighbors on the marsh. You can’t kill every rattlesnake in Texas.
About Ron George
Ron George retired in 2015 from Texas A&M University-Corpus Christi as a research development officer. He is a former journalist and retired presbyter of The Episcopal Church. His newspaper stints include The Corpus Christi Caller-Times, The Dallas Morning News and The Houston Chronicle. He was an instructor in the Journalism Department at Texas A&M University in College Station and news adviser for The Battalion student newspaper from 1999 to 2006. A 1965 graduate of Texas Christian University (BA, Journalism), George holds a Master of Divinity degree (cum laude) from Nashotah House Theological seminary (1976) and a Doctor of Ministry degree from Austin Presbyterian Theological Seminary (2009). In retirement, he writes for pleasure at https://pelicandiaries.wordpress.com/.
The Tomb Cutter
His family had been stonecutters for generations. His father and grandfather worked all their lives on the great Temple in Jerusalem. He was born in the city of David, almost in the shadow of Herod’s great work as it rose above the Kidron Valley. Previous generations of his family had been itinerant craftsmen, ranging as far north as the Galilee and across the Jordan River valley. They were a proud, talented clan, and the gleaming cities they left behind were their legacy.
They were Jews and spoke the common tongue of Palestine but also Greek, for it was the language of trade. There hadn’t been much need for it in his time, but grandfather always insisted that the family keep its Greek, even after more than 40 years of living in mountainous Judah. You can speak Greek to the ends of the earth, he used to say; and someday, you may have to go there to make a living.
He had no yen to travel, though. Jerusalem was home, the center of his world, his life. Now his children were learning his craft and trade; and soon, he would be the grandfather of his family. Thirty years of life, most of them in quarries and climbing construction scaffolding, had left their mark, but he was glad to have lived so long. Many of his generation had not. He no longer scaled quarry ladders, but neither had he quit working. He was a tomb cutter, one of the best. The pay was good for an old man, but best of all, his feet never left the ground. He had seen too many of his old friends end their days falling from where they had climbed to put finishing touches on high stone. Some regarded tomb cutting as unclean. There was nothing unclean about a new tomb, though, which he was weary of explaining to neighbors.
His clients were wealthy and had taken to the burial practice of cutting family tombs into limestone with enough space to lay out a corpse and then store the bones in niches in the walls or floor after the flesh had totally decayed. Thousands of such tombs in Jerusalem were filled with bone-boxes inscribed with the names of the dead. Every handbreadth of space was used for storing the bones before a new tomb was cut. Hiring a tomb cutter, especially the best, was expensive.
He had cut large and small tombs, always with a ledge for laying out the corpse. He took great care in making the tomb seem more like the room of house than a hole in the side of a hill. Most tomb cutters did no more than this, and of course, their prices were lower. He had spent too many years, however, carefully measuring and measuring again before making just the right cut.
It was a hallmark of his work that his tombs were secure, ingeniously engineered to make it impossible for grave robbers to steal whatever was precious in the bone boxes. Once the custom-cut stone, shaped like a globe, was rolled into place, it took special tools to move it. He was not only the cutter of tombs but the opener as well for those he made, which was another reason his prices were high.
He had for some weeks worked on a modest tomb for a member of the Council from Arimathea. It wasn’t far outside the northern wall of the city, between roads leading from the Fish and Sheep gates on the way to Samaria. Nearby, a putrescent waste dump fouled the air, the Place of the Skull, so called for all the rotting animal carcasses and even human remains. Beggars’ corpses were dumped there—and criminals’, especially of those crucified on that foul heap. He detested the tomb site. He’d almost turned down the work, but the Arimathean was persuasive—and paid a little more. He’d finished the tomb just a week before Passover.
The holiday was relatively uneventful, which is not to say the city was calm. While tens of thousands of pilgrims thronged upper city streets and the Temple precincts, his family crowded into his house in the lower city to commemorate Passover with the traditional meal. Permanent residents of Jerusalem had learned to stay home when pilgrims jammed the streets. They had stored extra food and provisions for weeks before the holiday. His sons had secured the lamb and had it duly sacrificed, but everyone else stayed far from the Temple. They would pay their respects some other time.
As usual, the family remained together through Passover night, all sleeping in the tomb cutter’s modest house. They would stay together through the Sabbath, which began at sundown the next day. An unspoken prayer churned in everyone’s breast: Let there be no riots this year.
There weren’t, although a Galilean rabbi had been arrested for making trouble at the Temple, or so his sons told him. He spat upon hearing the news. Nothing good comes out of Galilee, he said. Some criminals were to be crucified, and it was rumored that the rabbi might be crucified, too, although no one was sure. Residents in the lower city heard only bits and pieces of what was going on at the Antonia, the Roman fortress built immediately next to the Temple. He was relieved that he’d finished his work for the Arimathean. The dump was especially foul after a crucifixion. It took days for victims to die and then putrefy as carrion birds picked their bones clean.
Not long before Sabbath sundown, a messenger came from the Arimathean. The new tomb had to be opened. Reluctantly, the tomb cutter set out through the city, which was quiet though still crowded with pilgrims. Fortunately, his sons had been close at hand, so they joined him, which would make the work go faster. They made for the Fish Gate and then for the new tomb.
The large closing-stone fit snugly and had been rolled into place over a lip of stone he had cut intentionally so it would fall into the round, low entrance of the tomb. He had left a slot at the top of the stone and had fashioned a special tool that, when slipped into the slot and down the back of the stone would engage a notch that enabled one man to pull the stone away from the entrance; without the tool, however, it was impossible to get hand or lever behind the stone to pull it out. He and his sons made short work of removing the stone. A few moments later, the Arimathean came with a small group of men carrying a corpse, followed by a few women.
This is one of the criminals, he thought, stepping back. The Arimathean said nothing but stood aside as the men carried the corpse into the tomb, which was no easy matter. The entrance was no more than three cubits across. The Arimathean passed a taper inside; a few moments later, the men came out. The women, carrying blocks of spices and a long piece of linen, went in for a few minutes then emerged. Everyone looked more frightened than grief-stricken. The sun was just above the horizon. Shadows were long. The tomb cutter aligned the closing stone then let it roll into the entrance of the tomb.
The Arimathean asked that the stone be removed early on the first day of the week. The tomb cutter agreed, then he and his sons hurried home. He wondered why the wealthy Arimathean let a criminal be put in his new family tomb; otherwise, he didn’t think much about it. It was the Sabbath, a day of rest. There had been no Passover riots. His family was safe and secure. Perhaps the day after tomorrow would shed more light on this strange burial.
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Chill air and darkness greeted the tomb cutter as he rose the morning of Yom Ree-Shom, the day after Sabbath. Snoring and deep breathing rose from his wife, sons and daughters, their spouses and children. He walked carefully through the house then picked up his tomb-opening tools—a large iron hook threaded with long leather straps and a stout wooden staff he’d put near the door. He splashed cold water on his face from a cistern then donned and cinched his stonecutter’s leather tunic, a protective outer shell worn over his garments.
Jerusalem’s streets lay empty. He decided not to carry a lamp but made his way in the dark through the city’s narrow but familiar streets. He passed through the Fish Gate no more than a half hour after leaving his house in the lower city. He picked his way carefully along a rocky path through an orchard then down a steep bank to the tomb he had made for the Arimathean. Golgotha’s stench rode the morning breeze. He marveled at the silence—no moans from the crosses, no screams. They must have died sooner than usual, he thought, which made the burial of the crucified man two days ago all the more strange.
He worked quickly to remove the globe-shaped stone from the mouth of the tomb. He dropped the carefully-fashioned iron hook behind the stone through a notch he’d made at the top of the stone, then skillfully let the hook slide down the back of the stone until it caught on a deep notch he’d made to fit the hook. He tied the strap ends together to form a loop, then used the staff put through the loop to pull the heavy stone from where it lay secure against the tomb entrance. It came to rest with some precision a few feet away from tomb’s mouth. The tomb cutter would align the stone carefully before replacing it after the body inside had been treated. He walked some distance away to wait for the women who would come to clean the body and drape it with linen. He would keep his distance and replace the stone when they left. He had no desire to see that corpse again. He found an olive tree, sat to lean against it and promptly dozed.
He was awakened by women’s voices as dawn light began to make its way over the Mount of Olives. The tomb cutter smiled as they marveled that the stone had been removed from the mouth of the tomb. He hoped they would be quick about their grisly business so he could replace the stone and return home. The first woman crouched to enter the tomb but quickly emerged, shouting at the others and tearing at her hair. She screamed, They’ve stolen his body! The other women looked into the tomb. All began keening their grief and fear. Surely this was the work of the Temple guard. The final degradation—a second death!
The tomb cutter slowly approached the grieving women, but before he could reach them, they rose and hurried back the way they’d come, almost running along a path to the Sheep Gate road that would take them across the Kidron Valley to the Mount of Olives and then Bethany two miles away. He turned back to the tomb and stooped to enter. Sunlight scarcely shone into the cave, but there was enough light to see that the corpse put on the ledge last Sabbath sundown was not there. The spice blocks and linen remained. Pungent spices only amplified the sickening odor of dried blood and human waste on the ledge. The tomb cutter left the tomb quickly but not quick enough to avoid vomiting.
No one could have stolen that man’s body, he thought; no one could have rolled away that stone. The Arimathean would be furious that someone had stolen the body. He had paid a premium for the tomb cutter’s reputed guarantee that tombs he made could not be robbed. He’d have to return his pay for this tomb. That setback, though, was nothing compared with damage to his reputation. Then came an even more frightening thought: He would be accused of stealing the body, because he was the only one who could open the tomb. He began to sweat as fear churned his innards. Morning had broken, and it would not be long before nearby roads would be swarming with traveling Passover pilgrims leaving the city. Rumors would spread quickly once the women told others what they had found. All eyes would be looking for the tomb cutter.
He staggered then collapsed in despair.
Don’t be afraid, said someone nearby. The tomb cutter leaped to his feet but saw no one. I’m here, said the man, behind the olive tree. Please don’t look upon my nakedness. The tomb cutter ignored the man’s plea and began walking toward the tree where he had sat waiting for the women. He took off his leather tunic, and without saying a word held it out for the man to take. The naked man slipped into the tunic then stepped from behind the tree.
Dried blood caked and matted his hair. Bruises covered his swollen face and blackened eyes. Torn flesh hung from his knees, which still oozed as he stood. Worst of all, the man’s hands and feet had been pierced and still bled. The stunned tomb cutter could but gawk at the man who wore his tunic.
I was one of them, the man said through labored breath as he sat down on a large stone. I was crucified two days ago, but then I awoke in the tomb. I was frightened, he said. I didn’t know where I was. It was so dark, I thought I was in Sheol. I couldn’t get out of the tomb. I prayed I would die. Then I heard the sound of metal against the stone, and the tomb was opened. I saw no one at first when I finally crawled out. I looked for a hiding place because I was naked.
The tomb cutter found his voice: Who are you?
Yeshua, the man said. I am a teacher from Galilee.
The tomb cutter backed away. He had seen a dead man laid in the tomb, a man flogged and crucified; and now, that man was speaking to him. His body hadn’t been stolen—or had it? What was he seeing now? A ghost? A demon? Something from Sheol come to haunt him? Moments before, the tomb cutter had feared for his reputation; now, he feared for his life. Perhaps this shade had come to kill him and take him to Sheol. The strangeness made his head swim as he backed away, reached for his tools and then turned to flee the way he’d come.
As he stumbled along a path through the olive trees, he heard voices behind him. Turning, he saw men and women coming to the tomb, but he didn’t see the Galilean. His family, thought the stone-cutter. They will accuse me. He plunged on through the trees to the Fish Gate road.
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The Arimathean never came to accuse him. It was well known who had made the tomb, and rumors of a crucified man risen from the dead percolated through the city. The tomb cutter kept silent. He knew nothing of the man, he would say when asked. He had opened the Arimathean’s tomb and then went home. Ask a Galilean, he would say as he spat with disgust.
Temple guards once came to ask about the Arimathean’s tomb. Yes, he said, I opened it. There was no body in it. No, I didn’t steal the body. It was unclean, and I am a religious man. How then, they asked, did the dead Galilean get out of the tomb? I don’t know, said the tomb cutter; maybe his disciples stole his body, though I don’t know how. That tomb could not be opened without my tools. Then you must have stolen the body, they said. No, he said, it was unclean. And so it went, round and round. The guards threatened to torture him but didn’t. The tomb cutter was known to be an honest man from a good family, generations of stonecutters who had helped build the Temple. The tomb cutter told no one, ever, that he had seen the man and fled. In any case, it wasn’t long before the story of the crucified teacher from Galilee who vanished from the Arimathean’s tomb was all but forgotten.
Almost, but not quite.
Rosemary McAuley lives in Glasgow, Scotland. She has an MA(hons) in History of Art, MTh and a PhD in Theology and Religious Studies (all at University of Glasgow). She is also a painter and publishes articles on art and spirituality, as well as short stories and poems. Her website is rosemarytmcauley.com
The Beginning Light of Chanukah
Deep in the pit of a darkened world
Silenced in hushed agony’s prison
Where the black crows
Walk upon our dead
There rises sparks of blue and white
Dancing around our pain
In sweet anticipation of Melech haOlam
The conquering flame of light
Ignited this Chanukah night
His light growing day by day
Strengthening our victors cry
“Baruch atah Adonai
ELOHEIM”!!
See our universal King
Awakens to rouse up
His Majesty’s temple again
And put His golden feet upon
Tomorrow’s freedom.
About Roy Gomez
Roy Gomez is currently working on a BA in English at Texas A&M-Corpus Christi. He lives with his wife, two kids, and far too many cats.
A Change Is Coming
Alan’s suicide note was delivered Priority Express in a sky-blue Hallmark envelope. What a brazenly final move! He must have dropped it in the mailbox with no reservations about his intentions. There was no return address, but I recognized his graffiti style handwriting. I struggled to find the courage to open it. Several months had elapsed, and yet, the regret and desire for absolution had not dissipated since our final interaction.
Our relationship was one sided. The only way he could get me to spend time with him was to show up at the low-traffic record store I work at. He committed my schedule to memory. As a result, I spent my days pleading with the seconds; hoping he wouldn’t show up and hold me hostage until the end of my shift. He was ten years my junior, seven inches shorter than me, and always yapping away like a chihuahua when in familiar company. He was the little brother of a friend of mine, and somewhere along the way he got the impression that we were close friends. He even gave me a switchblade adorned with an image of the Virgin Mary against the backdrop of the Mexican flag. READ THE REST IN CORPUS CHRISTI WRITERS 2023