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Pete Lutz is a native of Illinois and a U.S. Navy retiree who finished his military career in South Texas and decided to stay. A lover of and writer of poetry since youth, Pete is the creator of several audio drama series, and a collection of his scripts was just published this year.
Radioactive Ron
RADIOACTIVE RON, a Tale of an Apocalypse
A Crown of Sonnets
Suggested by Juan Manuel Perez
"Radioactive Ron is on the air,
With tunes to make you wanna twitch your hips;
And some designed to make you sit and stare,
And contemplate this new apocalypse."
I say this ev'ry day as I sign on,
Repeat it sev'ral times in case they hear:
For survivors, are there any? Patty? John?
Family, friends? Or strangers, far or near?
And in-between I broadcast every song
That I can get my hands on, jazz or rock,
Hip-hop, R-and-B, plus Muni Long,
Or William Haley's "Rock Around the Clock".
Music doesn't matter; message does:
To wit: Earth ain't the place she used to was.
To wit: Earth ain't the place she used to was,
And everything just happened all at once –
One day your baby's face is soft as fuzz,
The next he's tatted up and smoking blunts.
Don't ask me why, I'm up here all alone:
The twenty-seventh level is my lair.
There's no one left to call me on the phone,
Or join me, sitting in that other chair.
We're getting power, no one sends a bill –
How long we'll have it, only heaven knows.
And thus the empty hours do I fill,
Like the emp'ror, my purpose has no clothes.
But naked though it be, what helps me cope?
That thing with feathers, Emily's friend, hope.
That thing with feathers, Emily's friend, hope
Sustained me in the early days of this,
When I was strung out, feeling like a dope
And standing 'bout an inch from the abyss.
I screamed, I cried, I called out ev'ry name
Of ev'ryone I'd seen the day before:
My wife, my kids, my friends! And then my shame
At stealing unpaid items from a store;
But hope soon drew me backward from the ledge.
I reasoned that there couldn't be just me;
So in my heart I made a tearful pledge:
My fellow humans, where'er you may be,
Find you I duly must, I told myself.
I took determination off the shelf.
I took determination off the shelf,
And like a shawl upon my shoulders wear;
I'm sending out my words, up north of Guelph,
And south of Rio, bouncing on the air.
For entertainment's sake, my voice ain't much,
And these old records really show their age.
If you hear me, I hope you'll get in touch –
But zombies, please just shuffle past my cage.
Although, to tell the truth, I think I might
Be glad to see the stumbling undead pass;
See somethingmoving, other than the light,
Or the wind as it shifts the dying grass.
It doesn't really change much here, the view:
It's nice enough, but better seen by two.
It's nice enough, but better seen by two,
And by now, I'm not picky – I don't care -
Male or female, dog or pony, kangaroo –
All free to join me in that other chair.
It serves me, usually, to act aloof:
To act as if I wouldn't even glance
At another living being's foot, or hoof –
'Blivious as Joe Cool at his school dance.
It's always quiet, but even more at night,
And at these times aloofness goes bye-bye:
Emotion swallows me – my throat grows tight,
And saved-up lonesome tears for hours I cry.
'Til I emerge next morning, hoarse, and spent:
Another day to shine and represent.
"Another day to shine and represent!"
I tell myself each morning as I choose
The records that would make me president
If tunes were votes instead of rock and blues.
I represent mankind in glory full:
"Today, no war!" ironically I shout;
"Peace prevails!" My symbol is a gull:
Unfortunately, doves have all died out.
From my tower I can see an unmanned tank,
Empty Humvees, big guns topside-mount;
But Generals and Colonels I outrank:
My "Last Man Standing" status? Don't discount.
I flip a switch – into the mic I stare:
"Radioactive Ron is on the air!"
"Radioactive Ron is on the air!"
That house is empty, no one dwells within.
"Radioactive Ron is on the air!"
School is vacant, no class to begin.
"Radioactive Ron is on the air!"
Corner store is free of shoppers now.
"Radioactive Ron is on the air!"
Stock market has stopped ticking off the Dow.
"Radioactive Ron is on the air!"
Fields overgrown with sticker-burrs and weeds.
"Radioactive Ron is on the air!"
Libraries full of books that no one reads.
"Hey, humanity! Is anybody there?
Radioactive Ron is on the air..."
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PETE LUTZ
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THE BETTER MAN
An Audio Play © 2014 by Pete Lutz
Adapted from a Short Story by Harold De Polo
(In the Public Domain)
CANNED ANNOUNCEMENT. Taken from the pages of magazines your grandfather used to hide from your grandmother, this is Pulp-Pourri Theatre! Starring the Narada Radio Company!
MUSIC UP. FADE OUT AT [X]
ANNOUNCER. This is a tale of the Untamed Frontier – of winters that are six months long, of a land where the warmest day of that winter might be the coldest day of your entire year. A land where men and women are either strong enough to survive, or get stacked up like so much cordwood until the spring thaw. [X] Our tale for tonight, "The Better Man," was written by Harold De Polo, and it appeared in the July, 1932 issue of "Thrilling Adventures" magazine. If you've been with us for our earlier episodes of Pulp-Pourri Theatre, you'll know that we are doing our best to bring you a wide variety of stories for your listening pleasure. So far we've presented dramas from the Science-Fiction, Crime, and Western genres; entered the realm of the supernatural; told you a tale of the Average Joe; and treated you to a taste of the macabre. In episodes to come we hope to bring you such fields as War Stories, Romance, Sports, and the Jungle. But let's get started on our story for tonight. [PAUSE] Our story-teller is the "Old-Timer". He has no other name, because he's so old he's forgotten it. He's been everywhere, he's done and seen everything, and he's lived to tell about it. Howdy, Mr. Old-Timer, are you ready to tell us your story?
OLD-TIMER. Why, sure, Johnnie (Daughter if ANNOUNCER is a woman)! But – did ya get me that thing I asked fer? You know – to wet my whistle, like?
ANNOUNCER. Look there, next to your left elbow, Mr. Old-Timer, and help yourself.
OLD-TIMER. Ah! Why, thankee, Johnnie (Daughter)! Story-tellin' is thirsty work.
SFX. Cork pulled from bottle, quick glugging of liquid.
OLD-TIMER. [REFRESHED] Ahhh! Smooth! Now, where was I?
ANNOUNCER. You were about to start telling us a story about -–
OLD-TIMER. [INTERRUPTS] Oh, yeah, that's right!
MUSIC UP UNTIL [X]
OLD-TIMER. Let's go up to the Yukon, almost a century ago. Not much has changed since then: Winter holds the Yukon in a tight, icy fist. The sap don't run in the willows. Valley, stream and mountain lay like something dead in the grip of the ice. [PAUSE] And then, it changes: slowly the sun begins to swing north, an' the ice begins to break up, an' the northbound boats start carrying passengers an' freight again. [X] On this partick'ler day I'm talkin' about, a boat pulls in, an' off gets this chechaco – that's what the Chinooks call a newcomer – an' a stranger-lookin' feller nobody there ever did see. Sorta frail, he was, an' carryin' a hefty grip in each hand, an' lookin' for all the world like he couldn't make it all the way down the gangplank with the weight of 'em. Sev'ral of the down-an'-outers jumped up hopefully, but the lad smiled pleasantly and shook his head, no. [PAUSE] This was Chet Rand, and when you hear his story, you'll say there never was a less-likely candidate, to defend a sled-dog he'd never laid eyes on before.
MUSIC SWELLS, FADES.
CHET. [DEEP BREATH AT [X]] Ahhhh!
OLD-TIMER. Chet Rand dropped his bags and sucked in a deep draught of air. [X] He looked t'me like he was glad to be off'n that cramped boat and out in the wide-open. It was just as he stooped to pick up his bags, that the thing happened.
SFX. Whip cracking, dog barking, background voices in appropriate spots below.
OLD-TIMER. Over where freight was bein' loaded, a big man with a barrel chest, was stackin' two big boxes atop a sled, that had a single Husky harnessed to it. That man was Georges Lafitte, but everybody called him 'Bully'. You'll see why in a second. [PAUSE] Now, even though it was obvious that this sled-dog was powerful, the load on that sled was too much fer him – though he strained mightily, the steel runners cut deeper into the snow, and sank into the ground.
BYSTANDERS. [LAUGHTER] Told ye so, Lafitte! Bully, that dog can't pull such a load! Why don't you pull it and let the dog ride? (etc.)
LAFITTE. [DEEP, THICK FRENCH ACCENT] [SNARLS] She move, by gar. W'en I say she go, she go! Allons, allons, mon brave! [GRUNT WITH EFFORT OF CRACKING WHIP]
SFX. Dog whining, whip crack, dog cries out in pain.
OLD-TIMER. I never did see a gamer dog than that Husky – and though you could tell that Bully's whip had cut deep, the dog didn't break his stand. He gripped his paws further in, swelled out his chest, and threw ever' ounce of strength into his effort to move that sled. But it just couldn't be done. Ever'body seemed to realize that – ever'body, that is, but Bully Lafitte.
LAFITTE. [ANGRILY] W'en I say go – she go! [GRUNT WITH EFFORT OF CRACKING WHIP]
SFX. Whip crack.
BYSTANDERS. Ease up on that dog, Bully! You're going too far! Why, that last lash cut into his belly! [Etc.]
CHET. You filthy hound!
STING.
OLD-TIMER. All the bystanders were shocked into silence when Chet Rand shouted those words. The circle of on-lookers parted instinctively when this newcomer, this stranger to their town, broke through and faced Lafitte. The young man's paleness was gone: color had come to his cheeks, his mouth was pulled taut, and his gray eyes were burning with hate for the cruel Frenchman.
CHET. Damn you! Can't you see that you've been asking the impossible of that dog? Can't you see that the poor beggar can't do it? You – you swine!
OLD-TIMER. Bully Lafitte just stared at Chet Rand for a long moment, as if he couldn't quite savvy the message of the young man's words.
LAFITTE. W'ot? W'ot? You mean dose words for Lafitte? Pour moi?!
OLD-TIMER. Bully Lafitte was a man of the North Country; and in the North Country, as a rule, you don't interfere between a man and his dogs, unless the thing has gone purty far. And more partick-alerly, you don't interfere with Bully Lafitte under any circumstances. It came home to him now that this stranger – this puny chechaco – was actually calling him names. Understanding finally dawned on the Canuck's face, and he let loose with a roar of anger.
Peter Newall was born in Sydney, Australia, where he worked in a Navy dockyard, as a lawyer and as a musician. He has since lived in Japan, in Germany and now in Odesa, Ukraine. He has been published in England, America, Europe, Hong Kong and Australia. Tomaszow was the site of Nazi atrocities.
WINTER IN TOMASZOW
Leszek had been awake since before dawn. He didn’t want to be; he’d been out drinking last night with some university classmates, and he’d rather have slept it off. But even before the grey wintry daylight leaked in through the window he was awake, lying with the covers drawn up to his chin, his head aching, staring up at the ceiling.
The ceiling in his one-room flat was high, nearly five metres, so that in winter the place never got warm, even when the radiator was working properly. In its centre was an ornate circular plaster rose. A twisted rope of brown electric flex descended from it, bearing a single light bulb under a white porcelain shade.
Once a chandelier would have hung there, Leszek was sure. The building was nineteenth century, the clumsy internal walls showing it had been divided up into these little flats much later. When it was built, its three storeys would have contained the spacious apartments of the well-to-do of the town. Now it was a warren, housing students, single mothers and men on the edges of employment.
Next to the ceiling rose was a patch where the plaster had fallen away, showing the wooden laths underneath. During the day, if Leszek noticed it at all, the damaged part was just a brown blotch. Sometimes at night, though, lying in bed without his glasses, he saw the blotch as a bear, standing on its hind legs, complete with upraised paws and stubby tail. More than once he’d dreamed about bears after falling asleep staring up at the shape above him.
But now in the faint morning light he saw a different image; the head of an old man, bearded, wearing a tall hat. Leszek squeezed his eyes closed until he saw stars, then opened them again; the old man was still there. Why he was seeing him for the first time today he wasn’t sure. Perhaps it was someone who had once lived here.
Leszek did wonder occasionally about all the people who had called this building their home before him, people who had eaten, drank, argued and loved here, who had brought up their families within these walls, walked up and down the wooden staircase with its curved balustrade, seen the sunrise through the tall windows, perhaps even lain and stared up at the ceiling rose as he did. Once he’d asked the garrulous old concierge if she remembered the place before the war. She looked at him oddly, then cleared her throat, spat, and said she had been too little then for her to remember anything about those days. Then she began a loud clattering with her mop and bucket, and he didn’t ask her anything more.
There was no point staying in bed any longer, Leszek decided; he wouldn’t go back to sleep. He swung his legs from under the covers and felt for his slippers on the linoleum floor. At the sink he washed in freezing cold water, then, rubbing his face roughly with a towel, fumbled for his glasses on the table. He lit the gas ring; its hiss was comforting, and Leszek watched the little blue crown of flame for a moment before putting the kettle on. While he waited for the water to boil he pulled on his clothes; jeans, a woollen shirt and a heavy sweater. He found some thick socks, then padded over to the window to see the day outside.
The sky was thickly overcast, and the courtyard below full of snow. Even now, snow was drifting slowly through the grey air. It had covered the black billets of firewood piled against the brick wall, and coated the steps and window-ledges like thick sugar icing. The smooth, white quadrangle of the yard was scarred only by the glassy path the tenants had trodden from the back door of the building to the street gate. It was certainly cold; there was a thin rime of ice inside the windowpanes. The mottled black-and-brown dog that usually slept on a piece of sacking next to the gas tank must have found some warmer refuge.
But to Leszek’s surprise, there was someone out there. A young woman, wearing a short yellow dress, was standing in the middle of the snowy yard. She stood out vividly, the only colourful thing in a black and white landscape. As Leszek watched, she began to twirl around slowly, arms outstretched, lifting her face to the cloudy sky.
His first thought was that she was drunk, but as he stared at her through the rimed window pane Leszek decided she could not be; her movements were too assured and graceful, her features too composed. But something out of the ordinary had driven her to stand there spinning around, like a little girl playing ballerina, in the empty courtyard, without a coat or a scarf or a hat in the falling snow, under the eyes of the neighbours.
Now she stopped turning, slowly lowered her arms and stood still, head bowed. Snowflakes fell onto her thick dark hair and remained there, white as a bridal veil. The picture made Leszek uneasy. He wished the woman weren’t there, and he wished he hadn’t seen her. But now he had, the scene below him was too strange, too unsettling, to ignore. He decided to go out and speak to her, offer help. Even if there were nothing he could do, he might find some explanation for her behaviour, which would resolve his unease. He tugged on his boots, clattered down the worn wooden stairs and pushed open the metal door onto the yard. His glasses fogged up as soon as he was outside, but even so he saw a curtain move behind a windowpane on the second floor.
From his window he’d taken the woman to be very young, but as Leszek came close he saw she was at least thirty. She was staring downward, her head turned away, and did not look up even when he was standing beside her. Her jaw, fine-boned, was sharply angled above a long neck. Her eyebrows were dark and strongly marked. She was thin, her skin pale, almost translucent. Her legs below the yellow summerweight dress were bare, with lace-up heeled shoes half disappearing into the crusty snow.
‘Excuse me, Miss,’ he said, ‘are you all right?’ Sensing that was rude, he tried again: ‘Do you need any help?’
She looked at him, unfocussed, as if she’d only then become aware he was standing next to her. ‘No,’ she said slowly, ‘not now. It’s too late now.’ Her voice sounded flat and muffled. She looked away toward the corner of the courtyard. Leszek looked there too, but could see nothing but snow falling softly in front of the orange brick wall. Spreading her arms out once more, the woman began to sing, not loudly, but very distinctly: ‘My darling, how about dropping in to Tomaszów for a day?’ Her voice was husky and pitched unusually low, disconcerting coming from such a slight, delicate frame.
Leszek didn’t know this song about his town, Tomaszów, but it seemed to speak of lost love. That would explain it, of course; there had been an affair, her lover someone in this building, and she has just found out it has gone wrong. Distraught, she’s run out into the snow just as she was. There was no mystery, no need for concern. In a while she would recover herself and leave, or else the boyfriend would come out and take her back inside. She didn’t look upset, true, but you couldn’t always tell, and nobody stands spinning round in falling snow unless they have been knocked off balance somehow.
Still Leszek hesitated. Yes, but who wears a short summer dress, even inside the house, in the middle of January? And those old-fashioned shoes? Something wasn’t right, something he couldn’t identify. But there was nothing he could do. He shrugged and turned away.
‘Did you know this was the main house in the ghetto?’ The woman had spoken to him. Leszek stared back at her over his shoulder. His eyes met hers for the first time; they were large, dark brown or even black, set wide apart in her narrow face. At first they struck Leszek as simply expressionless, but as he stared into them, they seemed to be entirely blank, empty. Although her face was turned directly to him, Leszek felt her eyes were not looking into his at all. ‘It was from here they took everyone,’ she said, ‘from this yard they took everyone away. Nobody helped then, and now it’s too late.’
He realised she must be speaking of the kind of thing that happened during the war, fifty years before he was born. He knew a bit about it; everyone did, even though it hadn’t been mentioned in the history classes at school. But he had never heard of it happening here in Tomaszów. He didn’t even know there had been a ghetto here. He shivered and jammed his chilled hands into his armpits; his sweater was already wet from the still-falling snow, and a clammy chill was crawling down inside his collar. But the dark-haired woman stood stock still among the drifting snowflakes, showing no sign of being cold. He looked hard at her; she was so pale, she seemed almost transparent. It struck him that her hair was in an antiquated style, too, rolled at the front above her forehead. She was looking past him with those blank eyes, scanning the windows of the apartments, humming softly to herself. Leszek felt afraid, of what he wasn’t sure, but afraid. He turned and hurried back across the yard towards his flat. His feet seemed to stick in the snow.
‘In this room, where they’ve put other people’s furniture,’ he heard her sing as he dragged open the heavy ground floor door, something like panic grabbing at him. He threw himself inside, skidding and almost falling on the worn marble tiles, and banged the door shut behind him. Recovering his balance, he ran up the stairs to his flat.
There, he strode across to the window without even taking off his snow-caked boots. Pulling the curtain aside, he looked down into the yard. It was empty. He stared, bewildered, but the woman was not there. There was nobody there. The rusty metal gate to the street was shut. He saw the marks of his own footsteps in the soft snow, going out to the middle of the quadrangle and back in a shape like a hairpin, but he couldn’t see any others. Leszek peered hard through the drifting snowflakes. No, there were certainly no footprints to mark the woman’s presence in the yard. Of course, if she’d kept entirely to the hard, icy path leading to the street, it was just possible she might not have left any.
Includes two lines from the song ‘Tomaszów’ by Julian Tuwim, translated from the Polish by Peter Newall.
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Red Herring
There were slim pickings on NexusMart tonight, but one of the drugs in the “clearance” section caught Sparky’s eye.
“Hey Rock, check this out,” Sparky called to his business partner, who emerged from behind the dim light of another laptop to look over Sparky’s shoulder.
“Rexadone…?” Rock wondered aloud, stroking his months-old beard, black with streaks of gray below rugged square features. If Rock didn’t know what this batch of red pills were with the years of experience he had in the industry, then it was hard to know who did.
“It sounds like Pharma, only Pharma would name their shit like this. What are you going to do with expired drugs?” Rock queried, somewhat puzzled.
“It says it was used to treat PTSD and anxiety during the war - Rock, we can cut this with our own stuff, I know it!” Sparky said excitedly as he turned to Rock on his swivel chair, his long unkempt hair dancing in the dark shadows of the room.
“As long as you try it first, bro,” Rock replied skeptically. The big man returned to his station, though not without taking a hit from his trusty pen vape, which spread clouds of blue-green smoke into their motel room. For at least a year now the two vagrants had been scouring dark web markets and selling whatever they could on the streets to feed their own vaping habits, but Sparky was sure that this batch would be a winner. It may even put them out of business for a while, in a good way.
He put in an order for the entire stock of Rexadone from Nexus and sat back in his chair, triumphant. The pills would come by express mail in less than a week, in a nondescript cardboard box filled with a couple hundred of them.
In the meantime, Sparky decided to go for a walk.
It was well past 4 AM when the young blonde vape addict opened the door of his SwingBy Motel room, just off Route 50 in Northeast Washington, D.C. The air was refreshingly chilly as Sparky wandered down the side of the highway to get some food from the Farco gas station right near the “Venue,” as Rock had been calling it. There wasn’t a performance tonight so the area was mostly empty. But some vape heads were still milling about the gas station waiting for a hit from some charitable passerby.
Determined to get those chips and a bottle of SunDew for dinner, Sparky pulled the hood of his jacket over his head and ducked straight into the station, rolling through the vape heads and ignoring their weak pleas.
“Come on man, just a hit, please,”
“I can’t get any in the city, welfare’s run out, you know how bad it gets brother!”
Yes, Sparky did know how bad it gets. That’s why he and Rock had been staked out in front of the Venue for the past month, selling their product to over-privileged youths and their hangers-on whenever a big DJ was in town.
The auto-lock doors of the Farco closed behind him as the Asian station manager scrutinized Sparky from behind a bulletproof window, stun-lance in a holster on the wall. Sparky mustered a small smile and the manager let him into the station proper before resuming some livestream on his phone.
The Chinese really got us fucked up this time, Sparky thought as the dour manager scanned the debit chip on the young man’s forearm. He hungrily ripped open the bag of chips on the walk back to the motel as the night sky turned light purple and then showed signs of powder blue. Maybe he would get some sleep this morning. It wasn’t really necessary once you were hooked on the vape.
Kunlun, or KL for short, was a highly addictive synthetic chemical. It had the effect of both a stimulant and a mild opioid, but was not as deadly – at least not at first. The Chinese developed KL vapes to help the many casualties of the Sino-U.S. War cope with its horrors and quell the domestic protests against the fighting that sprung up like “like bamboo shoots after the rain.” But it didn’t take long for the new vapes to spread to the U.S.
What is a bamboo shoot, even, Sparky mused with some curiosity as he hit the motel mattress and heaved the empty SunDew bottle to the side. It rang hollow and rolled under the double twin, which was cramped with his and Rock’s lab and tech equipment. Wireless routers and extra laptops shared space with beakers, heaters and containers to rotate into the bathroom tub with.
This wasn’t the life Sparky had envisioned for himself when he moved down from upstate New York to play collegiate soccer at a small private college in Maryland. But he lost his scholarship after picking up vaping at one too many soccer parties. No practice, no scholarship. No scholarship, no school.
The early morning news played on an old flatscreen TV. A melancholy broadcaster pulled up an “alarming chart” estimating that almost half of the U.S. population was now hooked on vaping, to say nothing of the situation in China. Story in the street was that the vaped up soldiers on each side couldn’t even shoot straight, so the war was at a standstill. But thinking about world affairs tired Sparky out, so he fell asleep as the sun’s rays began to filter through the flimsy curtains.
“Yo! Sparky! Time to work!” Rock called out in his deep voice from the bathroom in what seemed like the very next minute after Sparky dozed off. Within seconds Rock was in the room throwing pillows at him.
Rock was the one who pulled him into this work, having learned a thing or two about cooking product in his time. He was also Sparky’s social studies TA at the college who extended “help” when he noticed the young man struggling – and vaping. A teaching stipend wasn’t going to pay for vape pods, so they teamed up after Sparky dropped out. So far they had found success, but without a high, Rock was a real dick.
“Alright man, I’m coming, just let me wake and vape…” Sparky sputtered as he shoved the projectile pillows to the floor. He pulled out his vape and took a good look at the device that now dictated his life.
You’ll never amount to anything, Sparky. Especially not to your father.
You’re a failure, Sparky, you’re nothing to anyone, you’re a nobody.
You threw your life away for a high, Sparky, your parents will never take you back.
You had everything going for you and now you’re just a dirty vape head.
“Shut up!” Sparky shouted to the voices inside his head and took a hit. Blue-green haze surrounded him and his world changed in an instant.
I can do anything I want to.
I am the savior of the nation, I know all things that are good, I’m psychic, I’m a superman. I’m a secret weapon.
I am so special. The entire world will hold me up as a shining example of what it means to be a human being.
I don’t have to do a thing but wait for everyone to find out how special I am. I don’t have to lift a finger.
It’s so obvious. It’s clearer than daylight how motherfucking great I am.
“What did you say to me?” Rock growled.
“Nothing, man, nothing…everything’s good. Everything’s peachy,” Sparky smiled back.
The high tapered out. Sparky got up and followed Rock to the bathroom. And for hours afterwards, as they boiled and mixed chemicals in silence, Sparky was distinctly paranoid about the NSA and FBI watching and listening to their every move, just because he was now a superhuman, and they could detect superhumans on their advanced frequencies.
And so the process repeated itself, day in, day out.
The motel’s night receptionist first suspected that something was up when Sparky started receiving packages at the front desk at odd hours. Then the perpetually bored-looking young woman reallyknew that something was up when Sparky started slipping her a vape pod once and again every few days, a currency more valuable than any dollar or yuan.
“I told you, don’t be sendin’ packages here no more,” she said weakly, as she accepted another pod from Sparky’s outstretched hand.
Sparky gave her another one of his disarming smiles and took the package he had been waiting for back to the room, where he ripped open the box as eagerly as a child receiving a long-awaited Christmas present. Red pills galore. They were even in their original packaging.
“Rexadone: Ambidexterose HCl 75%,” Sparky read aloud from the back of a packet as Rock walked out of the bathroom lab, pulled his gloves off and placed them to the side, ”50 mg doses. 24-packs. You know any of this?”
Rock reached down for a packet with a beefy hand and studied the packaging carefully.
“Leviathan Pharmaceuticals – what a name,” he said, throwing the packet back into the box. “Never heard of them, but from the description on Nexus and the packaging this is either an SSRI or an amphetamine clone, not a benzo. We can work with this.”
Rock already had the formula for another designer drug down and ready to go, but it was too potent and expensive to deliver on its own. It constantly needed something to even it out with, and that something this time was Rexadone. Sparky and Rock powdered a small batch of pills and mixed them with the powder of their own stuff, before heating it into a sort of gel in the bathtub lab.
The kids at the venue loved the shareable gel packets; they didn’t have the stigma of the powder or pills from the past. When the gel settled, Sparky took a sip of the first batch and the high hit him like a soul train.
It was a winner!
“It’s primo, Rock-O! I christen it Red Herring, after the name of a children’s book I read when I was a wee lad,” beamed Sparky.
“Glad you like it. Only you would name a drug after literature,” replied Rock, and motioned for Sparky to quickly grab some packets and go deal.
The “kids” liked it too. True, the age of admission to the Venue was 18, and Sparky never sold underage, but fake IDs were everywhere, and you couldn’t stop someone from sharing with a friend or lover. He preferred getting a VIP ticket and working the tables upstairs above the crowded dance floor rather than dealing at ground level. A couple shots in and everyone wants something stronger.
The bouncers never checked him, not when they were taking his pods on the side. It was 2 AM and the main act was just getting started, but Sparky put in a new approach at the bar downstairs, trying to strike up a conversation and sell to some passerby. He waded through clouds of vape smoke and ordered a vodka tonic before coming to a strange realization…
He hadn’t vaped at all in the past half day and night.
He reached for his vape pen, black and shaped like a thumb drive, which gave off a small blue light when activated. But he didn’t feel like vaping at all, and not because the venue disallowed it, what good that did. A wave of irrational fear swept over him as he pushed his drink to the side and walked away from the bar towards the restroom. Was he dying? Was this KL withdrawal?
But nothing happened. He looked at his pale face in the mirror against a wall as the music thumped on and the crowd cheered. Laser lights and pyrotechnics danced through the night. Sparky twirled his vape in his fingers and took a hit. Immediately he was overcome by a violent fit of coughing, as if he had inhaled too deeply. It still gave him a buzz, but nothing like it felt before. Before when?
Sparky tried to retrace his steps that day: What he ate and drank, how much he had slept, what drugs he had taken-
“Red Herring,” he whispered to himself, “that shit…?”
Sparky hurried out of the Venue and back to SwingBy, where Rock was already asleep in his clothes and snoring loudly on the other double twin. A cursory search of Rexadone on the clear web came up with nothing (“Did you mean ‘Rex gentium?’”). Leviathan Pharmaceuticals came up with nothing.
But the clear web was useless these days anyway. Sparky logged into a Deep Web Page Aggregator using a bogus account he had purchased off Nexus and searched there. No for Rexadone again, but here was the stub of an investment newswire from Goldberg Associates, dated December 17, 2028:
“Omega Pharmaceuticals purchases struggling Leviathan Pharma for USD 25 million; Leviathan accused of manipulating clinical trials, Federal contracts,” Sparky read aloud quietly.
The link to the original article had gone stale, but this was enough to get going on Omega on the clear web. Huge company. Federal contracts. And, flagship product: Twelve-hour KL substitute Klaxalone. Legal, sold at licensed dispensaries across the country.
Sparky was starting to think he knew why Rexadone and Leviathan disappeared.
“Rock, Rock, man wake up,” Sparky moaned as he shook the big man awake.
“What? Did you get busted?” Rock was in a fight-or-flight mode as he bolted to an upright position.
“No, it’s about Red Herring. It’s not what we think it is.”
“What, did someone overdose already?”
“It’s a substitute for vaping. For KL.”
“The fuck are you talking about?”
“It’s been twelve hours already, I don’t smoke, I don’t get withdrawal, it’s crazy. That Rexadone is an antidote to vaping. That’s why Leviathan got owned. Someone didn’t want vaping to end on anything except their terms,” Sparky stammered.
Rock finally woke up completely and gave Sparky a long, hard look. Then he made his decision:
“All I care about is whether this will get us caught because some idiots at the Venue took gel from a stranger and are now immune to vaping. We need to get the hell out of here,” Rock said, shooting out of bed and ripping up electrical wiring from the ground.
“What are you talking about? This is huge, this is earthshattering, we can stop vaping, and not just us – here, try it yourself,” Sparky said, offering a pouch from his jacket pocket to Rock.
“An earthshattering piece of shit is what it is – Understand,” Rock stopped gathering equipment for a moment and put his hands on Sparky’s trembling shoulders as he spoke, almost gently “vaping is the only thing keeping the country from ripping itself apart or tearing a new one into China.”
Sparky wasn’t sure if he agreed with the pro-vapers that much, but Rock did have a point.
“You want to change that then go right ahead – You’ll do it without me. I can’t risk the exposure your fuckery will bring to my livelihood,” Rock said with finality.
And so Rock left that night, though Sparky kept one of their VPN routers as a small token of their year-long partnership. Rock said that Sparky “would need it” before he quickly drove away with all the other equipment. Were they even friends? It was too late to tell now.
Now Sparky could only think of getting more Rexadone. It had been nearly 15 hours since his last real hit of KL, his mind was beginning to clear somewhat, and he was in no mood to retrace his steps of addiction. Unfortunately, there were no more listings of the drug on Nexus, in the clearance bin or anywhere else. He messaged one of the Nexus drug forum moderators about it with no response. Same on another dark web market, and another. Nada, nil, zilch.
“C’mon, man, give me something good…” he pleaded to his laptop. Desperate, he posted in the dark web market forums themselves: Rexadone-Leviathan Pharma?
This proved to be slightly helpful:
User Ubot571 RE: Rexadone-Leviathan Pharma - Not sure about Rexadone (sp?) but Leviathan was one of the first companies that marketed directly to Fed-Mil and they got close, too close probably ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
User Argo203 RE: Rexadone-Leviathan Pharma – @Ubot571 u referring to the experiments on PTSD/CTE?
User Joker999 RE: Rexadone-Leviathan Pharma – @Ubot571 @Argo209 Good Drug Good Drug, We Have Good Drug, Cocaine Marijuana Heroin Yellowcake Viagra Ritalin Percocet BITCOIN Accepted!!
Admin Loki908 (Mod) RE: Rexadone-Leviathan Pharma – [Bans Joker999]
Ubot571 RE: Rexadone-Leviathan Pharma– @Argo203 Yes, they were developing drugs to treat vets from the war but the Feds were getting kickbacks from the money they put into company projects. So they shut it down.
User Iota030 RE: Rexadone-Leviathan Pharma – I know a guy who used to work at Levi. He told me the whole operation got raided by the Feds one day and the plant/lab are now just holes in the ground in Iowa. You can’t find any trace of the website either. It’s like it never existed – but it did.
User Malarky369 (You) RE: Rexadone-Leviathan Pharma: PM@Iota030 Who is your friend? Do you still know him?
User Iota030 RE: Rexadone-Leviathan: PM@Malarky369 Sorry, that was a long time ago and we in the business don’t keep friends around that long ;) I will say that he was certain there wasn’t any wrongdoing at the company, but consider the source I guess.
This was turning into a full-blown conspiracy, and Sparky kind of liked being at the center of it all after fantasizing about them for so long. Going to Omega Pharma was out of the question, let alone to the police. If this batch was the only product he had left, Sparky was determined to make it count in the one way he knew how: Dealing. He had enough Rexadone to last himself for months, assuming it outperformed Klaxalone, which appeared to be the case. So all that was left to do was to get rid of the rest of the Red Herring, and then he could decide on what to do next - and maybe score some more Rexadone in the meantime.
He drew up a mental map of places where the most vape heads would congregate: VA medical centers, Franklin Square, churches, under bridges and on college campuses, where vaping was considered an intellectual pastime. Then, he hopped in his Chevy Impala and drove off to greet his new clientele.
Right at 4 AM, Sparky drove to Franklin Square first to try his hand on the homeless congregated there. Some lived in makeshift tents, others lay on the ground directly, still others milled about aimlessly.
“Yo my man, you got vape?” one gaunt-faced, curly-haired and seemingly emaciated vape head called out to Sparky from the side of the square.
“I got something better,” Sparky replied as he extended some product out the passenger side of his car.
“Gimmie that,” the vape head said, snatching the Red Herring packet out of Sparky’s hand with gusto. Other vape heads were starting to gather. Sparky accommodated them all with red packets.
“Shit! This shit real!” one of the female vape heads cried out after taking a hit.
“Merry Christmas, girl,” Sparky winked.
“Christmas? This April, fool!”
“Close enough,” Sparky laughed, as he drove off, leaving the vape heads to their own devices.
Next up was the VA hospital. Broken men from the war waited here at all hours for their benefits in wheelchairs or on crutches.
“What’s good, cuz’?” some soldiers missing limbs ambled up to Sparky’s Impala on Irving Street Northwest.
“Just a little present for our vets from the VA. Special delivery,” the blond man offered.
They tore into the packets too. And the people under the bridge. And the students, who were apprehensive at first, but soon gave in to curiosity. The clouds of vape smoke were particularly dense around the libraries, so that’s where Sparky went.
“How do we know it’s not poison?” they asked.
“You don’t,” Sparky said as he drove on and hit the next campus. Within hours he had sold almost all of the Red Herring, so he went back to SwingBy and ordered some General Tso’s for delivery. But when he walked downstairs to get his food, the receptionist stopped him.
“The police came here knocking on doors and askin’. I ain’t tell them nothing, but you gotta leave,” she said, looking him firmly in the eyes.
But Sparky wasn’t going to budge. He was doing more good than the cops and the government as far as he was concerned. It felt like a gift to offer relief from KL to hardcore vape heads - for a fee - after losing so much of his own life to vaping. And if this girl had said something about the operation Sparky was running, that would have been the end of herjob, too.
Besides, maybe Sparky really was special after all.
“Ok, I’ll get my stuff,” he lied. The receptionist looked like she wanted another pod for her silence, so Sparky passed her a Red Herring.
The Chinese was quite a feast, one that Sparky hadn’t enjoyed in a while. He almost wished that Rock was there to celebrate with him, but then realized he was finally emancipated from a guy who was just using him to get high. Then again, that made two of them.
For the first time in years, Sparky didn’t hear those voices in his head anymore. No bad ones, no “good” ones: It was just him and empty cartons of what was formerly rice and General Tso’s. Come to think of it, the Chinese place did have bamboo shoots on the menu. And Sparky’s mind was slowly recovering, just like bamboo shoots pushing their way through the dark soil to meet the rising sun after a night’s rain.Nearly 20 hours in and still no urge to vape.
Now that Sparky was practically the only woke dude in DC, what was he to do?
He could sell off his pod stash and go back to school with the proceeds. Athletics seemed out of the question after his long absence, but he was still handy with computers and willing to learn. He could go back to his parents: He thought of his father waiting in a La-Z-Boy with The New York Times in his hands, mom making her homemade lasagna to celebrate their son’s return. More Rexadone would show up somewhere, Sparky was sure of it.
Soon a massive wave of sleep overcame him and he dozed off, only to awaken to the sound of the morning news again:
“We’re following a developing story as dozens of individuals around the District say that their vaping dependency has ended overnight, due to the intervention of an unlikely good Samaritan” the comely female reporter stated from Franklin Square.
“This man was at Franklin Square last night when a ‘young blonde male in a Chevy Impala’ started distributing recreational drugs that appeared to temporarily cure him of his vaping addiction:”
The man’s face was blurred, but his voice was clear:
“Homes come by handin’ out drugs like they was chocolate, and after you took it, vapin’ don’t feel necessary no more. I been vapin’ for years but now I can’t do it, don’t feel like it.”
“The same packets were found to be in the possession of veterans near the VA Medical Center in Northwest Washington DC, and the individuals who ingested them are reporting similar effects. They are currently being evaluated at the VA hospital and other hospitals in the DC area, along with remaining amounts of the mystery drug, which have been sent to local medical laboratories for testing.”
“Police have released this surveillance image of the suspect and are asking for the public to come forward with information about this man’s whereabouts, before anyone comes to harm from dangerous chemicals. Tina Burch, Channel 6 news, Washington.”
“Thanks Tina - Well, if this really does change people’s vaping habits, then it’s a big deal, isn’t it?” the news announcer said with a cheerful air to his co-anchor.
“That’s for sure, Howie. Next up, Easter is almost here, and we’ll walk you through some of the biggest Easter Egg hunts in the District, including, of course, the annual White House Easter Egg Roll…”
The next instant, Sparky’s Nexus Inbox rang out with a new message:
Admin Loki 908 (Mod): PM@Malarky369 You’re screwed, “Sparky.” You’ve got 5 minutes before the DEA knocks down your door.
Sparky could hear sirens in the distance already. He bolted the door shut, pushed a bed and other furniture against it and proceeded to do the only other thing he knew could make a difference with the little time that remained in his life.
He started a livestream.
“Hey guys,” he muttered into the camera of his phone, “I’m Sparky Alvarez, the dude who was handing out stuff to vapers in DC last night.”
The platform’s AI instantly connected Sparky’s words with trending focus tags: #vaping #DC #Sparky. A few people joined his stream, but there were a lot of livestreams out there talking about the same topic. Sparky would have to work to get noticed.
“The drug I gave out is called Red Herring, and it’s made from a dank medication called Rexadone,” Sparky was becoming more confident with every word and tried to work up his inner showman. “Rexadone has the power to end addiction to vaping, as you can see – I’m one day sober, baby!”
The livestream attracted more viewers and added trending focus tags: #addiction #sober #vaping #DC #Sparky #Rexadone #RedHerring.
MishaWay: OMG is this the guy? He looks like the picture!
KellyTee: THAT IS THE GUY HE WAS ON CAMPUS LAST NIGHT
JakeCoral: He did a service to those vets and homeless people. Vaping addiction is a terrible thing #IStandWithSparky #Lit
(67k viewers #addiction #sober #vaping #DC #Sparky #Rexadone #RedHerring #StandWithSparky #ImWithSparky #Lit)
The sirens grew louder. Sparky walked to the other side of the motel room where some of the empty Rexadone packets lay:
“There’s no more Rexadone right now, because the American government and a company called Omega Pharmaceutical destroyed its original creator,” he said, putting the phone down and unfurling a user guide for Rexadone that was in one of the boxes.
(850k viewers #addiction #sober #vaping #DC #Sparky #Rexadone #RedHerring #StandWithSparky #ImWithSparky #Lit #conspiracy #OmegaPharma #LeviathanPharma)
Loud pounding and shouting started outside:
“Open the fucking door!”
A massive slam as the police started to breach the room. The bed would only hold for a few more seconds.
“This is the chemical formula of Rexadone according to its original maker, Leviathan Pharmaceuticals” Sparky said, holding up the piece of paper with a diagram of the drug’s molecular structure and elemental composition for his phone’s camera to soak in, “hopefully you guys can do something with this, along with everyone else who still has some Red Herring.
(2.1 million viewers #StandWithSparky #CureforVaping #NoMoreAddiction)
The door flew open and two men with assault rifles stormed in. Sparky raised his hands as he recorded the entire breach, being careful to show his audience everything that was happening in SwingBy.
“Drop the phone! Drop the phone!” the police shouted, motioning with their gloved hands.
Sparky shook his head.
The men opened fire, and as Sparky fell to the ground, he began his journey towards a place where addiction could be a thing of the past.
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PW Covington is a 100% Service Connected Disabled Veteran
ELEGY (2024)
He seemed to know his way around by soul
In any town that we came to
While remaining the consummate stranger
Brown-eyed
Passing through
Burning ambition for warmth in the night
Listening for love and only ever hearing echoes
The prophet of highway happenstance and truck stops
and smoky neon light-filled rooms at night
So deep in Mason Dixon
It almost made him want to cry
He told me once, while high
Sipping beer from a bag at night in Pensacola
How to hitchhike into Houston, out of San Antone
Or find a flop in Tucson to lay low
Those desperate places, next to nail salons
Where flesh is bought and sold
He seemed to know every County Road
Or Metro line, by heart
Airports were his haunts
Worked, a while, as a deckhand
In the deep blue cobalt Gulf
Of Mexico, he’d often talk about
Months with the Tarahumara
and the railroad to Los Mochis
He knew the alleyways of Santa Fe
and his way around Capitol Hill
Where to find the cheapest lid on Colfax
and the way from Mount St. Helens
Up to Deception Pass
Always feeling himself fueled mostly by momentum
He seemed to know his way around by soul
Brown-eyed
Passing through
ZERO KELVIN (2022)
Back from the war
I stayed stoned
The next ten years
I sought nothing but to be out
In far solitude
Or to live lost on the train platform
Airport commuter courthouse
Hospital prison detention
College clinic coffeeshop
Driver license waiting room
Waiting on the sure and unpredictable
Uncertainty
Having long out-wiled the finite
All salvation I will ever need
Is from myself
Southern Gothic crossroads in the night
State line rest stops, drinking
Chalices of inevitable bitter grounds
From brown, paper sacks
The next 10 years
Steady on towards
Zero Kelvin entropy
Nirvana ego-clearance center
Myth and splendor
All must go
DYNAMITE (2022)
*First published by the Nigerian-based Indie journal, Lion and Lilac
Destroy your desires with dynamite
Hold parades for all fallen conscripts
Convicts and Queens of gated community
Bodhidharma carpet-bombed the West
Until all that was left
Were mistrals and mystic misfits
Royal tapestries
Unwoven
Root canals at Christmastime
Be blessed
I’ve lit 17 fuses, myself, this morning
Shaving mirror after-shocks and tantrums
Trauma center take-out Kung Pao chile
Powder kept dry by force-field of panic
Bile in African sunlight, soaking
Into neon, smoke stained, sandbags stacked behind
Rinzai masters
Sit on carbonated councils
Compounding quarks and nano-bots
Leaving Louisiana on a flatbed trailer
Chained down and rusty, beside the Sabine
Destroy your desires with dynamite
Re-radicalize yourself, again
From within
How much of this dream do you want to believe, anyway?
Flow, Universal
Into the crevices and wrinkles
That time pretends to fill
Winter burns in twilight gleaming flight
Demon decolletage, teasing bankers out on Market Street
Discretion is not called for, these days, at all
Burn the ships that brought you here
The documents and currencies you hoard
Saints of circumstance in made-up murder mystery shows
The ebb and flow of failure praised perfection
Each climbs to
Our own orgone-powered tree house
At a quarter past the
Pyrotechnic afterglow
Shining noble
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Originally from West Virginia, Pete Adler has spent the past 49 years in Corpus Christi. He compiles "found poems" with each line taken from an internet news site headline.
Big Hair and Big Thoughts
backstage with her teenage idol
minor characters emerge
obsessed with the ocean
the tide of terror shifts
bizarre animals are lurking
whales gather in a heart shape
serial killers with less glorification
they came for him. they came.
all summer, I make ice pops out of horse blood
where the ranchers, poets and hippies roam
dreaming of retirement in the sun
the benefits of wise selfishness
a little island and a big change
to the country that bombs its own people
telling the truth in a haunted South
if you're addicted to weed, how do you know?
if you're addicted to weed, how do you know?
the graceful slide into cultural irrelevance
one miniature home at a time
Someone Lonely Considers Me a Friend
Someone Lonely Considers Me a Friend
the queen of Christmas refuses to leave,
drowning in drink
an overlooked cure for loneliness
the daydream of progress
how much snow will fall
in the most empty downtown in America?
a deadly lack of imagination,
the spoken word shapes the written word
will we ever see the beginning of time?
you never wanted to know about hemorrhoids:
this is how anger affects the body
genital stingers
give male WASPs some sense of sexual equality
the beaver gets a makeover
everyone is suddenly obsessed with
petulant oligarchs
homeless college students
realist nudes
culture in the crosshairs
forgotten but living on in sculptures
were you just freaking out?
Waiting for the tooth fairy
I raise his haggard frame,
my hand at his spine, feeling the ribs press back
through tarpaper skin,
hold the rasp of his lungs in my palm,
each breath the hiss and crackle
of a Lightning Hopkins 78.
unshaved face
cracked and bleeding forearms
the curled, yellow toenails of Howard Hughes.
She dotes, tending to every need with a loving hand
derived from 50 years of sleeping at his side,
crushes the oversized Rx tablet with the back of a spoon
and gingerly ladles the shards into his mouth
then wipes away
the spittle and jetsam from his lower lip.
still
his mouth gapes, unable to close on its own.
doleful eyes shut tight then open with effort,
only to close again in quiet submission.
You lean to touch and give a kiss,
to kiss the lips you have not kissed
since you were just a little girl,
that expression of emotion was never part of your world.
a tear slips down the bridge of your nose
onto his sunken, spotted cheek.
you wish to tell him of your love but
your voice is absent, you cannot speak.
with bowed legs no longer strong enough to carry him
he finds himself placed upon a bedpan
humbled by the fate of 60 years of unfiltered nicotine and tar.
with heavy tongue, he labors to communicate
the confusion
the frustration
the pain
He reaches in slow motion to grab an offered hand,
clutching limply with discolored, impotent fingers.
a cracked-tooth demi-smile lights the entire room
with its unexpected emergence
then disappears too soon.
Cancer, the one-eyed cur, howls in the night.
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Priscelle Nyeck is of Cameroonian origin and nationality. She lives in Yaoundé and combines writing and agriculture. She likes to discover the wonders of nature and share them with the world around her.
TO MY FRIEND
My Christmas vacations
I'll spend them at Grandma's
In the company of my brothers and cousins
From all over the world
In our country cabin
Deprived of youth and commentary
I'll go with my new clothes
I'll take my best books so as not to lose any notions
I'll plunge into the luminous experience of each of them
I'll fill my secret notebook with my feelings
I'll learn a new language
I'll play new games
I'll declaim new poems
I'll adopt a new face
Since you are my friend
I'll tell you about my family experience
These moments are rare
I'd like to make the most of them.
DECEMBER
The new year is upon us
From door to door, let us gather our childhood friends
Let us gather around a fire
Let the ice flow over our bodies
That will cleanse us of our differences
Better than we were
Once again, we have the chance to still exist.
Let’s not lose our childlike hearts
Happiness is not forbidden to parents
Let’s take pride in our wrinkles
Let’s wear coats and hats
Let’s go skiing on pastures
Let’s build snowmen
Let’s not be overwhelmed by nostalgia
Let’s live the present moment as the last
Let’s give each other gifts
Let’s decorate alpines and fir trees
Let’s sing along to Christmas music
Let’s jump, let’s dance, let’s drink
Smile and admire the beauty of nature
Time passes and we grow old
We need that friendly love
We’ve lost over the years
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